Sunday, December 18, 2011

The Time I bought

It is about 20 days that I wrote the post "Can't Buy Me Time".
In that post I concluded to include more and more activities in my daily life.

So here is what I have been doing in the last 3 weeks:
I've been doing a Sudoko puzzle almost every day.
We bought a baking oven (OTG-Oven Toaster Grill) and I tried my hand at baking.
My first attempt was a pizza, and it wasn't that bad.
Then I baked some German Weihnachtsplätzchen (Christmas Cookies) and "AngelEyes".
My little son and my sister liked them very much.
Roy and I made a Christmas crib and did some Christmas decorations for the Christmas tree and home.
I got the chance to be the "Master (Mistress) of Ceremony" for our Christmas programme in church. It was a great experience and I am happy that I was able to do it well.

So far so good ....
The last 2 weeks though were pretty stressing ... with so many Christmas programmes in church and other engagements coming up. Now I hope to get more rest.

For my future activities, I feel exercise needs to be added. And more "Me-Time"..
Well, let's see how it goes.

Friday, December 9, 2011

Love to be the lesser one

Had gone for a christmas choir preparation with some people.
An idea came up to stage the nativity scene with our kids. Though mine is too small to participate I was listening to what was being discussed.
The very little ones would enact the angels. One of the group then said that her son and his cousin sister would act as Maria and Joseph. Rest to play the 3 Kings and shepherds. There were no counter suggestions... maybe because there were no big enough kids to play Maria and Joseph.

But it made me think. If my son had been big enough, I possibly would have wanted him to enact Joseph. Why ? Because Maria and Joseph seem to be the next big roles after baby Jesus.
And I started to think again. That thought itself is wrong.
Everyone in the nativity scene - from the shepherds to the 3 Kings, to Maria and Joseph , everyone is important. The nativity scene is not complete without anyone of them.

I guess for the little kids it doesn't matter anyways which role they play.
Only we adults think about the "main" role. This reminds me that I need to think more like a child, more self-less, in so many ways.

Now, I can be happy whichever part my son will play, in the future ...

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Circumstancial Conflict

Yesterday I got very upset over something. Rather someone I should say.
I felt that this someone X was purposely (not) doing some things so as to hurt me.
I felt very bad. It affected me so badly I wanted to run away. I was mad.
I imagined already the worst assuming very strongly that this person may just not like me.

But then I was thinking, the last time we talked this person was very nice and friendly. I started to calm down and decided to confront the person and talk it out.

So when I got a chance to meet this person I requested for a chat. Only after talking I realized there were no such bad intentions from X.
This person genuinely liked me. I was very happy and relieved.
What bad things would have happened had I followed my initial feelings ....
I would have lost a very good friend ...

It was as if my feelings were playing with me. They were like a whirlwind storming through my mind and heart. But then calmness prevailed and I was able to think clearly again.

Sometimes circumstances play havoc in our lives which affects our thinking and the actions we take. In such times we must remember that only if we think clearly and calmly can we see the blue sky behind the clouds.